Sunday, November 13, 2005

100 Things...

Ok, I did promise my good Buddy Bodhi a 100 things about me post many months ago, despite fervently believing that I wouldn't be able to find 100 interesting things to say about myself. I still feel that, and also feel that I talk too much about myself as it is, but feel bad about the lack of posts this week and can't think of anything else to say! So here it is;
1/ I was born in Archway, London, UK, at the Whittington hospital on the 8th of June 1981.
2/ I now live in Brisbane, Australia.
3/ I have fallen in love with Australia after having been here less than a year and a half.
4/ I love the weather.
5/ Love the people.
6/ Love the lifestyle.
7/ I do, however, consider myself a true London Lad and not a day goes by when I don't miss it.
8/ I have now not been home for almost a year, the longest I have been away without a visit home.
9/ Before living here I lived in Koblenz, Germany (near Frankfurt) for a year, before that two years in Dessau, Germany (near Berlin) and before that a year in Zurich, Switzerland.
10/ My girlfriend Lisa and I met in Dessau, where we were both in the ballet company in the theatre.
11/ Lisa is Australian and we were both foreigners is a very foreign land. We met there mid August and got together on the stroke of midnight on New Year's eve!
12/ Dessau grew to be less foreign with time and I now hold some very fond memories of the time there.
13/ During my time in Dessau, I picked up German (makes it sound like a disease, doesn't it?!) and now speak it fluently. I love the language.
14/ I can also read and write it, although not as well as I can speak it.
15/ Whilst in Dessau, I also picked up a fair bit of Spanish, as there were a fair few Spanish speaking dancers in the company.
16/ This was helped by the fact that I had previously learnt French whilst spending the summer in Brittany at my first Girlfriend's house.
17/ It has now been so long since I've actually spoken French to anyone that I don't know if I'd really trust myself, but am sure it'd come back quickly enough.
18/ I love learning and studying languages and hope to do more of it someday.
19/ There are about a billion things that I'd love to do someday, including;
20/ Go parachuting.
21/ Visit Tibet.
22/ Visit Peru.
23/ Visit India.
24/ Be filthy rich (I was going to omit that one as I am well aware what an arsehole it makes me sound, but hey, it's true, and if that makes me an arsehole, I am what I am!).
25/ I change like the seasons, only a lot more frequently and a lot less predictably.
26/ This time last year, I was practising yoga often and finding ever greater peace through the practise.
27/ This year I am working out with a trainer and getting steadily in better shape. I am also finding peace through this, although not in quite the same way.
28/ I still, despite not having practised yoga for almost two months, aspire to find the motivation to get up at five o'clock and practise yoga on a consistent basis, at least three times a week or so.
29/ I will get there, I'm taking
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    30/ I have been making some lifestyle changes recently, changing my diet to be more healthy, working out, etc.
    31/ Don't ask me why, I don't know. Call me vain but it feels good.
    32/ It is giving me a goal, a focus, something I don't feel I've had for a while now, and contributing to my work.
    33/ I am trying hard to make work work at the moment. If you're puzzled, read some of my previous posts.
    34/ I'm running out of steam already, I told you I would.
    35/ And I'm only just over a third of the way through.
    36/ I'm going to have scrambled eggs with smoked salmon for dinner, something I've been looking forward to all day.
    37/ It is one of my favourite things to eat at the moment.
    38/ I also have some really lovely salmon, as Lisa and I have recently finally gotten around to going into the fishmonger down the road, something we've been meaning to do for ages, as it looked like they had great fish.
    39/ They do have great fish.
    40/ I am a big seafood lover, (another great thing about living here, the seafood's great) but don't eat meat anymore.
    41/ That is, mostly don't eat meat anymore, I ocasionally get a craving for Nando's which must be satisfied. (once in the last three months).
    42/ I did, in 2003, give up all meat, fish, and almost all dairy products for almost half a year.
    43/ I still ate well and felt very healthy, but it all fell apart when Lisa and I went to Oslo for an audition and I couldn't get anything without meat in it.
    44/ I could, thereafter, have gone back to that diet, but do love to eat and enjoy a nice bit of meat as much as the next Man.
    45/ It's things like a good old Full English Breakfast, Bacon sarnies and Nandos that will always trip me up in that respect.
    46/ I love a good breakfast, from a purely foodie point of view.
    47/ I also love getting together with friends for breakfast. There's something about breakfast that I find so cosy. You might have dinner with friends, or good friends, but breakfast is something you do with GREAT friends.
    48/ I'm odd.
    49/ I know it.
    50/ So does everybody else who knows anything about me.
    51/ Ok, I started this on Sunday and it's now Wednesday.
    52/ I am one of the great procrastinators.
    53/ I was brought up without any specific religion.
    54/ I have, in the past few years, taken an increasing interest in religion and spirituality and have been particularly taken to the Tao Te Ching and Tibetan Buddhism.
    55/ I have considered exploring further but feel that I am not ready. I am finding my own way and feel that, for now at least, I need the freedom to puzzle things out for myself.
    56/ The decisions I am coming to about life are all about balance. Balancing good and bad, happy and sad, balancing the physical, mental and emotional.
    57/ I am fundamentally a pretty unbalanced person and have at least two very contrasting sides to my personality.
    58/ I was born on the 8th of June, 1981 (yes, a Gemini)
    59/ I consider myself incredibly fortunate when it comes to the people in my life. I have the privilege of calling some of the most amazing people ever my friends and family.
    60/ Whether they'll admit they're related to me or call me their friend is another matter entirely.
    61/ I have an amazing family and consider my Mum and Brother two of my very best friends, two of the people in the world I will turn to first, talk to about anything.
    62/ Due to this, despite a not inconsiderable amount of empathy under normal circumstances, I find it very hard to understand people who have real problems with their families. I just don't get people who say, "yeah, I haven't spoken to my Brother/ Mother/ Father/ Sister for five years because we had a big fight, and I never want to talk to them again". (Sorry to anyone in that situation)
    63/ The more I see, the more people I talk to, the more it seems that my family is the exception rather than the rule.
    64/ We're not perfect either, we're all quite mad.
    65/ Sadly, my Father died almost ten years ago now. That's a long story.
    66/ I never cease to be amazed how fast time goes, but despite the (amazing) amount of time that has passed, my Dear Dad is still very much present.
    67/ He was a great man and although I have no regrets and know that this was the way it had to be, I do sometimes wish he could still be here, do sometimes wonder what life would have been like.
    68/ Going back to my Friends and family, I suffer terrible guilt for not being as good a friend/ Son/ Brother/ Grandson/ Cousin/ Nephew, etc., to them as they deserve. I never write, even now that I've got a computer at home, and certainly never call.
    69/ I would love to speak to them all more often, write to them more often, generally let them know how much they mean to me and how much I miss them.
    70/ I will get to that stage, given time.
    71/ By the time I get there they will probably no longer remember who I am.
    72/ I'm excited as I've nearly made it to a hundred now but feel I'm really scraping the barrel.
    73/ I am a big music lover, always have been. I am rarely to be seen without my ipod (before that it was a CD player, before that a Walkman) , and temper my moods with music.
    74/ I love the beautiful, beautiful people at apple. Even though the battery on mine is fading fast, the ipod has changed my life and I will always love it.
    75/ I love films too, and am always particularly impressed by films with great soundtracks.
    76/ I am a big sap and have been known to blub at films, songs, nice writing, anything really. As a kid I used to laugh at my Mum blubbing at sappy old movies and inherited the trait by a particularly cruel twist of fate. The sorts of films that get me going are things like It's a Wonderful Life, La Vita E Bella and A Muppet Christmas Carol (No, I don't want to say it again and yes, you did hear me correctly!) .
    77/ I love love love Christmas and have a set list of films that have to be watched every year on and around Christmas. These are the aforementioned It's A Wonderful Life and A Muppet Christmas Carol, as well as Raymond Briggs' The Snowman and Father Christmas, A Nightmare Before Christmas and Miracle on 34th St.
    78/ I do believe in Father Christmas.
    79/ I do find the Christmas decorations being up already too much, but must admit to being immensely excited about Christmas.
    80/ I sadly won't be going home for Christmas this year and have to admit to being somewhat dubious about Australian Christmas (one of the few facts about living here that I'm not 100 % about) , it just won't be the same when it's over thirty five degrees outside.
    81/ I love people, despite all their imperfections (or perhaps because of them?) , and tend to see the good in people, sometimes to the point of ridiculousness, or so I have been told.
    82/ I would love to help people on a grander scale but am beginning to feel that the most significant contribution I can make is to find peace, to be true to myself as well as others and to be kind, fair and conscious in all my interactions with others.
    83/ I believe that for all its pain and suffering, war and famine, the world is perfect. I don't believe it could be different. Well I do, I just believe that there will always be as much of the bad things. I believe that there is a perfect balance between good and bad.
    84/ I love the night, and sometimes stay up later than I should because it feels great just to be, to look out over the world as it sleeps, to listen to the sounds of the night.
    85/ I love to write, and always have done.
    86/ I have always wanted to write a book, or books, but just don't feel that I have anything unique enough to say to warrant it.
    87/ Maybe that's just an excuse, I have been known to be complacent in the past.
    88/ I have, however, also been known to be positive, passionate and focussed.
    89/ I always doubt the spelling of focussed.
    90/ I am the world's most anal person when it comes to writing text messages and insist on using correct punctuation and none of the crappy text abbreviations, they drive me mad. I have been known to write single messages that were up to eight texts long.
    91/ I love food. I REALLY love food. Don't get me started.
    92/ I dislike many things, including; bad people, bad jokes, bad music, incompetent people, arrogant people, unthinking people, people who are mean, people who are smelly and unwashed, people who tell bad jokes, people who play bad music, people who are untrue to themselves, people with no empathy, the list goes on.
    93/ I love good conversaion, and love good humour. I LOVE to laugh, and to see others laugh. I like to dance, and sing and be merry and joyous.
    94/ It's late and I'm really running out of anything meaningful to say. This all started out pretty meaningless and went downhill all the way from there. I also know that the minute I make it to a hundred, the floodgates will open and I'll think of another twenty things I just HAVE to say.
    95/ One of my nicknames as a kid was Martin Oddsocks Mc Weirdo.
    96/ Other nicknames were Creature, Crusher and Monster.
    97/ I plan to get up at five o'clock tomorrow morning and practise Yoga for the first time in a while. I often set my alarm for five o'clock, meaning to do yoga, then just wake up, turn it off and go back to bed to snuggle up to Lisa. She has come to call it the five o'clock cuddle alarm.
    98/ I'm terrible at getting out of bed in the mornings. I love to snuggle, and have been known to keep hitting the snooze button for over an hour.
    99/ I do, however, never regret it when I do manage to get up really early. I think that early mornings are magnificent and always mean to make time to watch the sunrise.
    100/ One day I will. When I've made time for all those other things I have to do.
    101/ Sorry, couldn't leave this one out now could we? I love you (especially if you've read all the way down here, you're a saint!!) Take good care xxxxx

    4 Comments:

    At November 17, 2005 10:51 am , Blogger Bodhi said...

    Well I for one can tell you that I found this both interesting and illuminating Martin. Yaaay to you for finally sitting down and taking out the time to do it! Here are some of my thoughts and comments:

    #8. As of tommorow (18/11), I have not been "home" to my parents at Port Macquarie for 19 months. Which is also my longest period. Mind you, having lived in Sydney now for 18 years, for quite some years now this place has kinda felt more home than home, if that makes sense :-)

    #21 Me too!

    #42 I gave up all meat back in April 2002, and have never missed it nor for that matter felt physically better for it. Funnily enough, I attended a three hour corporate lunch yesterday with my top Broker at an upmarket seafood restaurant here in North Sydney. Thats right, a vegeterian, as well as sober and clean Buddhist at a expense account seafood restaurant booze up - lol! It was ... interesting

    #47. Next time you come to Sydney I will take you out for breakfast. Don't dissapoint me Marty, its my one great shot at being GREAT, M'kay - lol

    #48 & #49. Ditto!

    #62 I have not seen, and have barely spoken to, my parents since coming out to them. Hence my comments on #8 above. Prior to that, I had a really great relationship with them. The current situation is not from lack of trying on my part I can assure you. I still love them to bits, but for their own reasons they seem to find it difficult to reciprocate this. *sigh*. I just have to remain patient, and hope they come around in time. You are indeed lucky.

    #77 Ashley and I have our regular holiday season favourite films as well. The Ref, National Lampoons Christmas Vocation, and also A Muppet Christmas Carol. Those choices probably say more about us than I would care to elaborate on :-)

    #79 Until last year, I used to be the biggest decorations tragic on the planet. First weekend in October, and I had my place putting major department stores to shame. Tree's, lights, centrepieces, wreaths, reindeers and santa's, the whole shebang. Of course it was all done it the best possible taste, and the whole ensemble colour-co-ordinated and matched to within an inch of its life. Gay man + shiny xmas decorations = scary. M'kay. But now that Ashley is bigger, I don't bother anymore. Surprisingly enough, I don't miss it either. Though seeing the decorations up in the stores still make me smile.

    #82. I love to help people as well, which is why I continue to be involved with various levels of service work within my Buddhist and recovery fellowships. But you got that "significant contribution" bit exactly right, bro :-) The Dalai Lama once said "my religion is kindness". Every moment provides us an opportunity to practise just that, dude.

    #84. I also love the night. In fact its very rare for me to ever go to bed before midnight, even though I am happily up early on weekdays for work. And I like to meditate immediately before I go to bed as well, its my favourite time to do so.

    Oh, and there's also the fact that

    I want to go where the people dance
    I want some action
    I wanna live
    Action - I got so much to give.
    I want to give it

    I want to get some too.

    I love the night life.
    I got to boogie

    on the disco-round
    oh yeah.
    I love the night life.
    I got to boogie
    on the disco-round
    oh yeah ...



    #86. I have written a book, actually on a Taoist approach to recovery, but never thought or wanted to get it printed. It was certainly an enlightening and somewhat cathartic experience to write it. One day I will write my Buddhist Recovery book, and hope to get it published. In the meantime, I will just haunt Andrew and Mikey's blogs with my comments - lol

     
    At November 17, 2005 10:58 pm , Blogger mesquirt said...

    #47 Hell yes Mate! I do think you're Great already but taking me out for breakfast really will seal your place way up there with the greatest of the great!!

    #62 I am aware of your situation with the folks and am also aware that it's not your fault. In fact, I was mostly thinking of you when I chose to elaborate on the matter of not getting people who have long standing family feuds. Your case is quite different!

    #77 A Muppet Christmas Carol rules!!! I've also still yet to see The Ref. Is that set around Christmas. Ooh, another new Crimbo favourite is Love Actually. We watched that the other day and I got all excited and Christmassy feeling.

    #79 I'm a big sucker for the ol' Christmas deccies too, just not 'til a week or so before Christmas. Mum and Dad always used to make us wait 'til school was finished for the year (usually around the 19th of December) before we could go and get a tree and put deccies up. I loved the last minute excitement of it all, it seems that that played such a large part in how magical it was. Having said that though, I was so into Christmas I'd start getting excited about it once my Birthday was over (June!) !

    I'm also very much looking forward to the Buddhist recovery book, but will settle for some more of your (very entertaining) blog haunting for the time being! Take good care Mate, chat to you soon, Mart

     
    At November 18, 2005 12:46 am , Blogger Simon said...

    Way to go Squirt, a heroic effort!

    We love you just the way you are and you know it

    x

     
    At November 18, 2005 10:52 am , Blogger Bodhi said...

    Yeah Marty, The Ref is set around Christmas time, and contains some really dark and twisted humour. National Lampoons Christmas is just hysterically funny, and of couse the Muppets is sweet and funny.

    Black, twisted, funny and sweet. Yup, thats pretty much it/us :-)

    "We love you just the way you are and you know it" - Indeed we do, Simon, and he should!

     

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